Wednesday, 20 January 2016

Grand Tableau Hits The Nail On The Head

As I haven't posted a Grand Tableau in a while, I thought the start of the year was a good time to throw one.  That being said, I was asking specifically about the next month, and an upcoming exam and essay I have...

For this particular GT I chose to use the Woman and Man cards, and it just so happens that the Woman faces left.  Hence, for this GT I will read the left side as indicating the future, which confirms what the reading is about.  Her line ends with the Coffin and the Book - an end to studying, which will come by the end of the month time period I set, when my final essay has to be handed in.  And right above that, the Scythe and the Letter - a written piece of work that needs to make the cut.

The corners address the theme perfectly.  Scythe, Sun, House, Dog - putting energy into 'making the cut', and sacrificing home/family and partner for it (my partner sees himself as the Dog, and that's how he always appears in my Lennie readings). 

My partner is not particularly impressed that this course runs on weekends, stealing from my time with him (Mice, Dog), and from family time more generally.  Nor, that I've been rather focused (some might say obsessed) with getting my work for it done.  Hey, the kids are happy watching online videos (Child mirroring with Stars, connected to Sun, Owls) or choosing to bury themselves in a good book (adjacent to Book, Coffin, Paths) :D

Still, my partner and I had a talk about it last week, so things are somewhat clearer now.  Clouds are behind the Woman, after a conversation (Owls) that lies where our lines/rows cross over.  The other joining card is the Cross - it has been a sorrow between us, but it is also a life lesson in how to keep a partnership working through clear communication.

What I'm in control of (directly beneath the Woman), is moving my work reputation forward (Anchor, Moon, Storks), which this course will do.  Pieces of paper, and memberships to offical bodies, are always good. 

As for what's on my mind, Fox, Cross and Mice suggest that there is also a life lesson around deception undermining my sense of self.  I recognise this: I am not speaking my truth on this course.  The course is directly related to my understanding of magic but, from their very scientific perspective, the two have nothing to do with one another.  So, I have kept quiet about my affiliations and prior experience - not out-and-out lying, but not speaking openly, either.

Moving forward, the advice seems to be to gather my resources and use them creatively (Flowers, Bear) in order to write this paper that will be assessed (Letter, Scythe).  This opportunity to gather more information and grow can bring me happiness, even as it requires work to complete (Clover, Tree, Rider, Book, Coffin).  And this work is definitely something that gets me into a feeling of flow, while requiring a rational perspective, making clear choices and trying to come up with something new and original (Anchor, Fish, Man, Paths, Child).

I notice the challenges that I may face with my commitment to this particular professional institution, despite their narrow, scientific approach (Anchor, Tower, Ring).  A discussion with clear boundaries may help me to feel more comfortable (Birch Rods, Snake, House).  And this seems to be something under my control, that's good to know.

As a final message, the last four cards suggest the key to overcoming the obstacles I will be facing over the next few weeks lies in committing to this emotional journey - embracing the opportunity this institution is affording me with this exam and essay (Key, Mountain, Heart, Ship, with Tower above Mountain and Ring above Heart).  It's not just about making the cut for them, but about enjoying the process - so much to learn and explore, with a practical element, too, where I am applying these learnings to my own life.  Yes, I embrace it!

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